I might not know exactly what I'm doing
Exactly why I react in tears
Or why it's been years
And I still block, unblock, and block you again

Or why my chest feels like a million butterflies caged inside
Begging for a release of internal lies
But I promise I'm trying to figure this out
To figure me out

This anxiety can be a real bitch sometimes
There's a huge gap before the bridge to the other side
And I wanna jump
Take that leap of faith

Pump 10 doses of confidence through my veins, but
I know what that means
Letting go of you
And all that we went through

Letting go of guilt, of past, of trauma
Rebuild, surpass, and promise
No more fixes in the form of beings

Complete as one
Messy
Yet freeing