I woke up from my dream
I have a lotus flower in my hands
They looked like suns, they shone and blinded my gaze
Climbing the trees, seeing how I destroyed myself
I fell, twisted my ankle, went into that tunnel again
Broke my mind into pieces
I could live on sunflowers and not complain
It was pain, it was seeing you go
Breaking our photos, burning letters
I wanted to forget, I wanted to escape to that field
Remember, remember, remember how much I turned to ashes

I was the best a few years ago, I was completely yours
I turned around and walked through the mangroves
Walked through the Ocean Boulevard tunnel
Our love bound by chains, bound by pure silver
When I remember our love, I see how much we hurt each other
Maybe it's not destiny, Jack

I wasn't alone, I saw it turn yellow again
I danced the waltz from that ballad, ink flowed from my eyes
The dress could make me more beautiful
I could throw away all the coffee cups I drank at our favorite coffee shop
You weren't going to call, you weren't going to call
You weren't going to call, I was breaking myself
The clock struck 11:39 PM, my makeup smudged
I ran to that field, I ran to lotus
I saw you kiss Jud, I saw you kill her
I saw everything, I saw my nightmares, I saw my fears, I saw your lips touching hers

I was the best a few years ago, I was completely yours
I turned around and walked through the mangroves
Walked through the Ocean Boulevard tunnel
Our love bound by chains, bound by pure silver
When I remember our love, I see how much we hurt each other
Maybe it's not destiny, Jack

When I remember our love, when I remember our love
When I remember our love, when I remember our love
When I remember our love, when I remember our love
When I remember our love, when I remember our love
I want to die, I want to die