Words and music by Shaun Groves
I'm scared to wander outside major keys
So I sing a song that I wrote just to please
The fools and the fakes, afraid just like me
To be honest
I play my part with a smile painted on
At best I'm a clown, at worst I'm a con
Convincing the crowd and myself nothing's wrong
To be honest
My soul is trembling
Knowing they're listening
But all that I need to be
Is all that you're making me
Chorus
I'm leaving the stage
You can turn my lights down
The curtain is closed
I'm taking my bow
Lord, help me remember
'Cause I forget how
To be honest
I rewrote my story without tragedies
Left out the lines that reveal I am weak
Erased every reason for you to save me
To be honest
My soul is trembling
Knowing they're listening
But all that I need to be
Is all that you're making me
Story Behind The Song:
I'm shocked at how fake Christians are with one another. I'm even more shocked at how fake I am. One Sunday in Bible study, we didn't study the Bible. Instead our teacher just asked us if we're honest with each other. Of course we said no. We then talked about all the reasons why - most of which had something to do with fear. I thought about that topic and his questions for days until I realized why I should be honest: If I don't show my weakness, you'll never see God's strength in me - you'll just see mine. (2 Corinthians 12:10)